...kibbles & bits

Alphabet study...the letter "L"...consonant...comes after K and before M...makes it ironic...Kong Mouth…Kong—illicit whiskey babbler, tattle tale tit of untruths...live, laugh, lust, love and LIE. We all had a family or neighborhood tattle tale tit as a child. We have sung one of the famous tattle tale rhymes:

~tattle tale, go to jail…stick your head in a garbage pail~

~ashes to ashes...dust to dust...tattle tales (snitches) can't play (roll) with us~

As a child, tall tales and/or tattle tales are accepted. I mean, I was the Queen of tattle. I told on everybody. “Mahm, Sissy won’t play fair with me! Make her come home now, Mahm.” “Mahm, they are mistreating me…my heart hurts!”…Don’t let my older brother hit me. I would have my Mahm paged at work, “Mahm, Big O hit me so hard, I fell out and I’m just waking up…my head hurts!” ~sorry, I’m laughing…“knock’em out John…whewwww you hear John holla”~… ^st unspoken sin, ENVY.

How do rumors get started, they're started by the jealous people and they get mad seein' somethin' they had and somebody else is holdin' ~from Timex Social Club "Rumors"~

I personally know people who have become victims of domestic abuse due to rumors…I have witnessed failed relationships and marriages due to rumors…I have seen people KILLED because of rumors! Garbage mouth people! They are too naïve to take responsibility for their own miserable, immature, demonic actions…their MOUTH. In a nice way, I say, people who gossip and start untrue (or hell even if they are true) rumors should learn the fine art of “shut the hell up”.

I think I'll write my congressman and tell him to pass a bill ... For the next time they catch somebody startin' rumors, shoot to kill ~from Timex Social Club "Rumors"~

Can you have laws without morals?...morals without laws?...laws without principle? I think that is how the Wrongful Death Claim birthed into the Department of Justice. “The power of life and death lies in the tongue”. “Freedom of speech” they say…but is freedom of speech free when it causes someone heartache, shame, even death...freedom of speech or legal right to offend others regardless?

Celebrities have been known to sue for libel and slander because of RUMORS. Everyday people have been put on blast because of rumors…and what is all this for? Is there a motive? More likely than not, when a person starts a rumor the motive is ENVY! I have said it once…but allow me to ECHO it for you…ENVY got Satan kicked out of heaven…ENVY caused Cane to kill his brother Abel…ENVY is a SIN people! It is ugly…ugly…ugly!

Envy is such an ugly trait! Thoughts of her bring me misery! I feel the hate emerging in me...I try to remember that allowing my demons to arise in me, allows her to control me. I swallow hard...I cry...I pray! I remember, God helps us when we ask before we do wrong; but I’m only human, and my hate-a-trick reflex, makes my hand-shake from the very thought of wanting to slap her into the reality she is not me...and NEVER will be...~from Stained Glass by Erin Adams-Phillips~

I have been a victim of ENVIOUS people…it HURTS to the core…they want your life so bad…they don’t give a damn whose heart they break, family they divide, or how low and classless they look. They try to make you out to be the DURTY DURTY…by telling LIES…spreading RUMORS!

Readers, trust me and you have my permission to ECHO this, when your partner, significant other, or spouse believe rumors about you told to them by someone of the opposite sex, they have MOTIVE too…they do wrong and try to blame YOU when they know it is a lie… I see envy…I taste greed…I smell insecurity.

Once you have falsified a person’s life resume, you cannot undo that, people…and me…Erin…I’m foolishly loyal…because even after the lies they told & envy caused them to betray a GREAT friend like me, still I will take their deep dark secrets…their truths…to my grave…I am not trying to hurt my back stooping to their level! I pity them…simply pity them; because, when you know what I was going through…told me it would be okay…supported me regardless, but still had to see if my life was golden…I have nothing for you but pity and that is no RUMOR—that’s FACT!

What do you propose, Erin; how do people stop rumors?

Rumors are inevitable…there are some people who are going to lie…cheat…and steal. I say to the gossiper… I say to the person whose mouth can’t hold water…I say to the garbage lover…I say to the Kong Mouth… life is about roles & responsibilities. Know your role in life and become familiar with your responsibilities…and if you do not, be ready for the fall out…and reap the repercussions!

~Tell-tale tit…your tongue will be slit…and all the dogs will eat it like kibbles & bits~

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...suicidal dreams

You do not understand even life. How can you understand death? ~Confucius~

Life is not easy. We were born into sin and the Bible tells us about the hardships that would be placed before us and reveals to us the signs of life’s difficulties in our era. Deuteronomy 28:59 warns about the plagues of life and how they would be “long-lasting plagues and malignant and long-lasting sicknesses”…verse 66 adds “And you will certainly be in the greatest peril for your life…you will not be sure of your life.”

There are certain subjects people avoid due to conflicted self-ethics and personal beliefs. Deliberate avoidance of such topics makes coping with life’s difficulties more stressful for some people who already struggle with day-to-day hardships. Those topics are—death and suicide—suicide and death. I tell you today, or as many times as you read this passage, two truths: (1) suicidal dreams are reality for some and (2) death is inevitable for all.

I dream of dying…death by one’s own hand...tangled in a world of love and lies…I just can’t understand why this pattern keeps cycling in my life…lying to my mind to make believe…fictitious smile plastered to deceive…everyone but self…I dream of dying…~from I Dream of Dying by Erin Adams-Phillips © 2009~

If you randomly selected 5 groups that consisted of 10 people, 1 out of 10 in that group will have dreamt, if not attempted suicide.  The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP, 2011) states, “More than 36,000 people in the United States die by suicide every year”. This number solidifies suicide as the 10^th cause of death annually in America. What could be so bad that one would want to take their own life? Circumstances differ.  Different people react differently to life events—illnesses, death of loved ones, abusive domestic relationships, divorces, termination from their job, financial decline, trials of parenthood, peer-pressure, and drugs (just to name a few) are some reasons people feel life is no longer worth living…they feel worthless and they feel the people they love would be better off with their demise. Therefore, they chose to terminate their lifely existence.

Some people cannot handle grief…some cannot handle suffering…some cannot handle a broken heart. AFSP (2011) warns, “The factors that contribute to any particular suicide are diverse and complex, so our efforts to understand it must incorporate many approaches. The clinical, neurobiological, legal and psychosocial aspects of suicide are some of the major lines of inquiry into suicide -- here, we present some information from each of these perspectives”. (Read more on perspectives, warnings, and statistics.)

When a person reaches out to you about harming oneself, your job is to listen, help them seek help or in the case of dire emergencies seek emergency help for them immediately, and to sympathize; not to understand…not to judge… not to pity…not to criticize…not to assume they just want attention…this is a cry…a plea for HELP!

I dream of dying and hearing Brahms’s lullaby…no more worries…no more sorrows…no more todays…no more tomorrows…baa baa baa baa baa baa…la la la la la la la….dream a little dream of me~…~from I Dream of Dying by Erin Adams-Phillips © 2009~

Oftentimes, onlookers or family of a person that committed suicide will think the person acted in a cowardly fashion by taking their life. The majority of society would agree; however, I ask, if it takes a coward to kill self, who does a brave person kill? Neither cowardice nor bravery is associated with suicide. It is lack of self and emotional connection most times coupled with mental disorder(s), such as depression…for some, even the lack of a personal relationship with God or a higher, Supreme Being is a factor in suicidal tendencies. Personally, to me, it is selfish, because suicide not only kills self, the shocking performance of self-murder leaves the minds of loved ones boggled with self-blame while their hearts are  wounded and filled with feelings of neglect and betrayal. Survivors of suicide are often angry and depressed; it is hard to accept that a loved one took their own life. Sadly, research shows that children who have parents who commit suicide are more prone to death by one’s own hand. 

As an avid reader, one of my favorite authors is William Shakespeare. Some may find it bizarre that a writer of non-literary fiction and poems would admire such a literary author of masterpiece tragedies. I, on the other hand, find it ironic. Most of my writings are about events in my life—good or bad—and how those events shape my very being. I term it—my WHO I AM. Shakespeare’s tragedies involve events of successfully planned murder and suicide in Romeo & Juliet to attempts of suicide in his notorious King Lear. Exactly what is my point? Shakespeare can be comprehended as applauding those people who cannot handle grief…who cannot handle suffering…who cannot handle a broken heart…people who end oneself by death; I am not applauding suicide nor attempts of suicide—I am merely stating a reality that is the cause of 36,000 deaths annually in the United States alone! 

As a person who has contemplated and attempted this act, I have the right to WRITE about it and TALK about it from personal experience. I am not brave…I am not a coward…I am a human who at one point could not cope with my own life’s tragedy and I had suicidal dreams.

No more killing the people I love…no more sickness…no more pain…no more expectations…no rainbows after the rain…only a hole left in the hearts of those I say I loved but feared…I pray they are comforted by God’s tears as He waters my final resting place...because I dreamed a little dream of me…baa baa baa baa baa baa…la la la la la la la…I dreamed of a little dream of me ~…~from I Dream of Dying by Erin Adams-Phillips © 2009~

For more information on suicide help please contact:

National Suicide Hotlines USA
United States of America

Toll-Free / 24 hours a day / 7 days a week

1-800-SUICIDE

1-800-784-2433

1-800-273-TALK

1-800-273-8255

1-800-799-4TTY (4889
Deaf Hotline

For suicide information by state please visit the following link:

http://suicidehotlines.com/

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